Dear future self:
It took courage to uncover the confidence that you now carry with such great poise after you’ve been poisoned into thinking that your beautiful, tenacious spirit had been bruised when in fact, it’s just been blossoming into a better, bolder you.
Bold enough to bury the barriers holding you back from writing with ease just because you’re trying to appease the audience – aka your friends – who fought tooth & nail to bring back joy when in fact, joy never left it just took a left turn down a rocky road.
It took patience to learn that your job isn’t what makes you cool, yet it’s your job to cool the voice telling you that your confidence has been shot when in fact, the only thing shot are the three pointers that you still manage to drain after being given a diagnosis that should actually be deemed a super power.
Powerful enough to be a hero without a cape who doesn’t save others but saves yourself from that time when your mind was acting drunk when in fact, it was just a sobering reminder reassuring you that resilience flows through your veins.
It took a lot time with a therapist who knows you better than your own mother to learn that your creative muscles can still be flexed they just need some training, even though you think your confidence is waning when in fact, the only thing that’s waning are the insecurities that instilled doubt in you.
I dare you to not dampen the enthusiasm everyone knows you to have even as you smile with a devil on your shoulder telling you you’re not good enough or cool enough when in fact, you’re smart enough to know that you never lost your confidence in the first place, you just misplaced it while cleaning the manic mess that was out of your control.
Now that you’re in control, you’re no longer looking for confidence because you found the courage to choose it.
Hawaiian Princess Pieces 